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Sunday, November 06, 2005

jumbo jumbo jumbo pack!

damn it! i still feel a bit sick. i really hope i could finish my thesis proposal before the deadliest deadline on november 14. i might not come to school tomorrow because my body still aches. i spent my vacation just reading books and articles. tomorrow i'll probably spend my time in front of the computer absorbing all the radiation instead of resting. i am so stressed-out i think i'd ask my mom to go out on a vacation this christmas break since my aunt and my cousins are not coming.

another nasty thing is my complexes were triggered by the datu puti jinggle. the song is stuck in my head since i-can't-remember-when. i tried playing almost all of my cd's but it seems that in every song i listen to, the dancing lito camo in elvis costume pops-out in my head whether the songs be as calming as enya or as heavy as tristania. i must forget that song as soon as possible before i mess-up with my thesis. fuck you lito camo! i'm going to kill you someday.

DISCLAIMER: the following paragraphs are for mature audiences only. if you think you're not mature enough, please don't read.

a while ago, my sister let me read a hipstir blog of a povedan slut. yes a poveda student... sixteen years old. she got the url from her friend timmy, who is also a classmate of mine in literary criticism class. i was so shocked after reading each sentence in her blog. i can see that she's an s person because her journal entries are oozing with details. her journal isn't the erotic type such as nabokov's lolita but the very visual english version of xerex and xaviera only with "class" since the language is not in filipino.

i noticed that if you talk about taboo stuff in filino, filipinos find it absurd because it's too vulgar. i really don't understand this kind of mentality. as what one of our professors (and crush ^__^), sir bayot said in his class, the mtrcb people don't even know the difference between erotica and porn. the only way for them to know the distinction, he says and i quote, "is for them to have good sex."

well anyway, as for the povedan girl-slut, she does it with different men of different shapes and sizes (just a metaphor) - teen age boys, the jologs moshpit boys, her friend's driver, and a congressman. yes peeps a congressman. to worsen things up, she does it without protection (because she's a bullet catcher if you know what i mean) and is really happy and proud that she's on pills.

she really is a slut. i'm not against pre-marital sex but what i hate is that she gives her body away that easily to men she doesn't even know. she does it for free except for mr. congressman because she traded a new ipod, jewelry set, and a cocktail dress for her body. she's also advertising, by the way. she has a picture of her nude body in her hipstir account - a beautiful piece of fuckable fresh (?) meat.

i have a boyfriend and i can't see myself na namamangka sa iba't ibang ilog... @_@ i have to sleep now guys. ;>

Doctor Unheimlich has diagnosed me with Vicegerent's Disease
Cause:	exposure to radiation
Symptoms:	automatic writing, blindness, tiredness
Cure:	click heels together three times
Enter your name, for your own diagnosis:

~~runaway~~